::...yes, another random thought poem thingy...::

i think i've been bored lately....creative energy has been flowin'...this one is called....

::abbreviated reminisence::

you grasp my indecisions with delicacy
to place them near your heart
but not too far from your own selfish desires.

our dialogue
laced with smiles and lies
only to lead us between the navy sheets

animalistic impulses
tearing at my insecurities
inate morality becomes dormant
as passion dominates

inner conversations replay without visuals
"what are you doing"
constantly...
repeating...
through...
my...
head.

faster and faster, louder and louder
my thoughts gyrating against my brain
i...
don't...
belong...
here...
with...
him.
looking at me with that sheepish grin
do you think the same?
WHATAMIDOINGHEREIDON'TBELONGHERE
screaming
"i am aloooooooooooooooooooooooone!"
::STOP::
-just breathe-
if you listen closely
you can hear our hearts beating in unison
to the rhythm of our passing innocence.

i pluck the last of my indecisions
from the folds of our compromises
and take them with me
for inspiration.

::yep....that's how it goes..::

we talk about how much they don't mean to us
an ongoing tango around undesired emotions
our coversation
like lines from a mediocre play
thick with memories
of those nights of empty satisfaction
and we both know the friendships we've made
will wear as fast as their promises

we don't belong here
we don't belong
we don't belong here
we don't belong

but comfort
-and the desire to be accepted-
validity makes us hunger for more
no matter how much we talk
the den of eniquity
feeds quickly on our insecurities
it has the power to make you forget
-who you are-

we don't belong here
we don't belong
we don't belong here
so why the f*ck is it so hard to say goodbye?

here it is, folks....

III311isGodIII: ...like scrotum here it is in a nutshell...
III311isGodIII: -bloodhound gang
DeathByAltoids: that's hot

((something profound))

bree's always enchanting wisdom...:)

DiamondsInUrFire: Who made up that phrase "cute as a button"? buttons never really struck me as cute.
DiamondsInUrFire: Do you ever see a button and think "oh, thats cute?" I dont think so. Anyone who uses this phrase should be hit, repeatedly.

BE JEALOUS!

...i know victoria's secret....

i lost my eraser in my cleavage today....

it took me about 10 minutes to find it.

what a sad life i lead.

((sing me to sleep....))

i'm finding myself not being able to fall asleep lately, because late at night i start thinking......and when i start thinking i can't stop.

so..i attribute my insomnia last night to thoughts such as this one:

*imagine me....drifting off.....then suddenly thinking*

"hmm...i wonder how many people actually die with tampons in..."

yeah...i'm ::that:: weird.

/that is all.

::i love these responses i get...::

Tululah94: oh meagen

Auto response from DeathByAltoids: my littlest brother spencer thinks that the reason i don't have a boyfriend is because, quite simply....

"you work at a hot dog stand"...

...in leiu of this recent revelation...i'm at work stuffing weiners in between soggy buns...8-)

Tululah94: yeah, well, do you think any self respecting man would want you knowing that you've been handling someone else's weiners all day??? honestly....

::...oh mom...:: hehe..

TCMatriarch: I must say that is probably easier than stuffing soggy weiners in between stiff buns!

Auto response from DeathByAltoids: my littlest brother spencer thinks that the reason i don't have a boyfriend is because, quite simply....

"you work at a hot dog stand"...

...in leiu of this recent revelation...i'm at work stuffing weiners in between soggy buns...8-)

IF GOD IS SMILING ON YOU, I THINK LATELY HE'S BEEN FARTING ON ME.

i intentionally wrote it out to be an illegible mess
you wanted me to write you letters, but i'd rather lose your address
and forget that we'd ever met and what did or did not occur.
sitting in the station, it's all a blur
of dancehall hips, pretentious quips.
a boxers, bob and weave.

-death cab for cutie....

i'm finding i talk to myself more and more these days....

I JUST FLOSSED!

things that bother me that really shouldn't....

1. capital letters that are the same in lowercase....like c and C...and s and S....i really hate that.
2. small, microscopic holes....like when you cook pancakes and there are small air bubbles...ew...those bother me.
3. the word "cream"

...and the list will continue to grow....