Dec 30, 2001

WARNING: this is what my horoscope predicts for this week......

"You will find your emotions strong and over reactive. Insecurities will also be emphasized, as will any leftover issues from your past. Your usual strength in being able to keep things in perspective through reason will not be as operative as it generally is, making it tough to handle certain situations. When Mars goes retrograde on Friday, this will become even more challenging. It would not be surprising if you were extremely moody, swinging from sorrow to aggression at the drop of a hat."

so if i suddenly lash out and strike you at random, don't say i didn't warn you....

"Life is like a chemistry problem........you just don't get it...."

compliments to whoever i stole that from.....i forget who you are....

email me at Dexters311@yahoo.com if you would like to be credited...

another pet peeve.....

people who use multiple exclamation points....

I DON'T CARE IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU NEED TO EMPHASIZE YOUR EXCITEMENT! i get the picture with just one exclamation point....

same goes for all other forms of punctuation....

(except periods when used to designate a pause or continuance.................)_

i just remembered that sunny d commercial.....you remember that one back in the day?

"let's see, what have we got here.....soda, orange juice, purple stuff......SUNNY D!"

that was the best....

Dec 28, 2001

[one of the] best lines in a movie...

"I came here tonight because i want to spend the rest of my life with you....and when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with someone, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."

can anyone place that line? muahahahah

i think that one of my biggest pet peeves is in movies....when they cut to a scene where there is one person telling a joke, but they only flash to the punchline and then everyone laughing. there is nothing that can make me feel more excluded, more isolated, more not part of the atmosphere of a movie then to tell only the punchline, and not the rest of the joke. it's like everyone else in the movie got to hear the joke, and everyone else understands the punchline, and then they laugh. sometimes i think that they are really laughing at ME because I didn't get to hear the joke, and now i know the punchline to a joke that probably never existed in the first place. i will never know the joke.

that's why, we shouldn't tell only the punchlines in movies.....because it upsets people like me.

p.s. whenever i shop with friends, i never buy anything....

god, i am so weird....

i hate shopping
i hate shopping
i hate shopping
i hate shopping
i hate shopping

yet....that is why i have no clothes....henceforth....

i have to go shopping....

Dec 27, 2001

p.s. i have seven new cavities in my mouth....

and that's another thing.....

you never want to hear the word "oops" out of a dentist's mouth....if you do, run and take cover....

"painful...with a few brief moments of excruciating agony"

this is how i would describe my trip to the mall today......oh my LORD! i was in a good mood....until this lady at the m.a.c. make-up counter in macy's decided that this would be "make meagen feel ugly and stupid day." first of all, she wouldn't help me until i asked for help...and then when she gave me lipgloss to try on, i asked her opinion if "it looked ok"....and she looked at me with a disgusted look on her face and said "ew, no....absolutely not...that looks terrible"....she could have JUST SAID that it was the WRONG COLORS! it's like, wow....one of the words that you do not want to hear out of a make-up "artist's" mouth is 'ew'.....i was nevertheless extremely embarressed. yet, i bought lipgloss from them anyway....i'm such a sucker....

Dec 24, 2001

i miss cal poly.....but i love my family!

"personal enjoyment is never a waste of time"

"true, but no one cares about it. no one cares whether you get off from playing a game, reading a book, having sex, sleeping, or smoking a grit. it's all selfish desire being played out in whatever manner seems most appropriate to the one indulging in this "hidden" pleasure. if everyone would stop reading rand and trying to be good little objectivists, we could get past that wall of thinking that how we spend our time makes a difference and focus on what we're thinking while we're spending our time (that is, not thinking, but doin [zen principle])"

compliments of "e-pill"

Dec 19, 2001

"no talent ass-clown"

i am considering this to be a song title for the band's debut album....kudos to anyone who can place that quote.....

whew! home for christmas.....haven't written in a while.....hard to find an available computer....

Dec 13, 2001

"He possess an enormous amount of apathy which, frankly, fightens me..."

good times with the girls...

"Weak Localization of Light in a Quasi-One-Dimensional Disordered Medium"

That is probably one of the coolest cornacopia of words i have ever heard.....kudos to Erik on that one....

I am thinking about using that as one of my band's song titles......any thoughts?

Updated Band List.............

Band Name-----Den of Antiquity

Song Titles....
1. Circumscribed Pianist
2. Whipped into a Frenzy
3. Lest You Forget
4. Sexcellent Condiment
5. Perhaps, As It Were
6. Viscous Meniscus
7. Horrible Wet Blanket

.....more to come later.......

P.S......I hate finals...

I think that my chemistry 127 final takes the cake for being the longest and most difficult final I have ever had IN MY ENTIRE LIFE! Hopefully, maybe next time around i'll actually get chemistry....

Dec 10, 2001

So....i just had the BEST experience of my LIFE last night.....

I went driving with Erik.....and he took me to the top of this mountain to see the stars. The moment that i step out of his truck, i am instantly surrounded by the wonders of nature....the stars are all around me. I have seriously never seen so many stars in my entire life. Just as I think that life cannot get any better, i look up into the sky....and see a star just FALL.....fall from the sky into oblivion. I seriously started crying right then and there.....(ok, so i'm a sap...) It was the most beautiful moment of my entire life. Needless to say, i went to bed happy last night.....and i woke up still in a state of sheer bliss.

It's moments like these that make life truly worthwhile.

Dec 9, 2001

Updated Band Name and Debut Album list.....

My Band Name----Den of Antiquity

Song Titles....
1. Circumscribed Pianist
2. Whipped into a Frenzy
3. Lest you Forget
4. Sexcellent Condiment
5. Perhaps, As it Were
6. Viscous Meniscus

.....more to come later....

****if you have any suggestions, feel free to IM me at DeathByAltoids*****

I've come to a very important conclusion..............

I think i am the BIGGEST procrastinator ever.

I think it's now time to alert the media.....

Dec 8, 2001

Band name---Den of Antiquity

Song Titles on the Debut Album--
1. Circumscribed Pianist
2. Whipped into a Frenzy
3. Lest You Forget
4. Sexcellent, As it Were

.....more to come later.....

i like newspapers......and 'cup of noodles'......and oreo jello pudding snacks.

hmmmm.....looks like Meagen is confused once again......anyone surprised?

many a moon
i pass you by.
you, the image of all that is good....
the epitamy of quintessential innocence
i strive to be you.
i yearn to breathe you.
yet.....i am not.
perhaps, i too am just one of many
struggling to come to grips with myself.
i want to be me.
i can't.
or, maybe...
i won't.

Dec 7, 2001

I wonder what would happen if i just....stopped doing everything.

So, i guess it's time to post a little note....this is the first time i've posted a blog or what-not, so my "sty" (pronounced 'stee'...in reference to 'style') should be a smidge interesting. Today was quite a productive day. I got a prescription filled. I ate....a lot. I went to the market, went for a drive, and hung out with some good 'peeps'. All in all, it was a nice day. UU time is fun. Interestingly enough, there i was....in the UU....with Lisa, Carl, and Tori...reading a newspaper article about the ASH (Atascadero State Hospital), and this lady sitting across from me pipes up and says she works in the jail where they decide to send the "mental cases" to ASH. Kinda ironic, i suppose. Funny what things can happen to you when you open your ears to society.