::oh my GOD, do i tryeeeeeeeeeeeeee::
hah....4 non blondes....good stuff.
well, as staind would say...."it's been awhile"....and so it has. so much has happened in such a short time, it's not even worth going over it all. bullshit. all bullshit i tell you. lately i've been feeling peculiar though. like i'm on the brink of insanity.....i was driving in the car the other day, and i almost had a nervous breakdown because i was thinking how good my life was. how screwed up is that? but seriously, besides the little bullshit things i have to deal with, there is nothing majorly wrong with my life. my life is perfect. everyting is too perfect right now, and always has been. is it weird that i kind of WANT a tramautizing event to happen in my life, just to break up the monotony of my sad, boring little perfect life in westlake? i mean, OH MY LORD! it's getting sickening. i need change, but at the same time..i push it away. i don't know what to do half of the time. whatever. i'm too busy to be thinking about stuff like this. my stomach fat is bothering me. as soon as i go back to school, i am seriously gettin' in some gym time. i am tired of being fat. i hate folded over potato chips. and i hate people who say they are gonna call you back and never do....and i hate the fact that i do that to other people. it's time to change. it's time to take charge of my life. and i wanna do it now! but i think i'm gonna wait until school starts again...but by that time, will it be too late?
[excerpt taken from melancholy thoughts via my deadjournal.....]
